urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bythethroat learn to live like a vampire Slit wrists are the latest fashion 2008-11-20T00:29:48Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bythethroat:136903 2008-11-20T00:29:48Z 2008-11-20T00:29:48Z I really do suck.<br /><br />first and most importantly jackie and I got married on November 17 2007. monday was our year anniversary. she is lovely. she got her star tats covered with some awesome swallows. they're nice. now everyone stares at her tits even more. imagine...<br /><br />our kids are doing great. we're homeschooling joon now. i finished school at cincinnati state and am now enrolled at JCC. i hope to be finished in 2 years or so. jackie is in school now too. it's pretty wild. we are crazy busy. joshua is 1 year and 7 months old jayceline is 2 years and 8 months old and jooniper is 8 years and 10 months. they're all getting so big so fast. our house is still the same. just minor upgrades here and there. ugh.<br /><br />i love you jacqueline. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bythethroat:136526 2007-09-29T14:26:48Z 2007-09-29T14:26:48Z wow...I'm old now. I'm 28 two days ago. this is strange. A lot has changed for me...us. first off, we bought a house in may and finally moved in sometime in July. It's been good for us. and it's nice having a place to call our own. I have also changed jobs...again. I work at cardinal surveying now. My old boss sat us down to tell us that he was paying us out of his savings account and could no longer do it and that we were going to contract labor the next week. And having a house payment, mouths to feed and backs to clothe, i needed guaranteed money. It's been good so far. my new boss is a fairly nice guy. i like him. i am also starting school in november at Cincinnati state then transferring to JCC to transfer to NKU to obtain a bachelors in surveying/construction management. I'm pretty psyched about it really.<br /><br />the kids are doing really well. Joon is soooo big. she is in the second grade now and she is enrolled in girl scouts (Jackie will be her troop leader!!!). Jayceline is getting to be such a big girl. she is our big helper. Joshua is doing amazing. better than i would have ever thought. <br /><br />Jackie is beautiful. i love her sooo much that it hurts. she looks hotter everyday. i just want to feel her up all the time....I'm a pervert! She gave me a beautiful birthday. She is wonderful and she completes me. My life is whole with her here! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bythethroat:136387 2007-06-08T18:39:08Z 2007-06-08T18:39:08Z <table cellpadding="5"><tr><td> <table> <tbody><tr> <td height="600" valign="top" width="255"> <img border="1" src="http://is1.okcupid.com/graphics/persons/RBLMm.gif" name="thebigpicture17"> </td> <td> </td> <td valign="top"> <center> <font size="5">The Vapor Trail</font><br> <font size="4"> Random Brutal Love Master (<font shmolor="red">RBLM</font>)</font><br><br> </center> Here today, gone today. You are <b>The Vapor Trail</b>. Are you in a relationship now? <br><br> <table align="right" bgshmolor="#bbbbbb" border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="1"> <tbody><tr height="20"> <td align="center" bgshmolor="#eeeeee"> <span class="tiny"> Your exact male opposite:<br> <b>The Backrubber</b><b><br> <img border="1" src="http://is1.okcupid.com/graphics/persons/DGSDm_thumb.gif" hspace="3" vspace="7"><br> Deliberate Gentle Sex Dreamer </b></span> <b> </b></td> </tr> </tbody></table> What about now? <br><br> Vapor Trails can be highly charismatic people--unpredictable, confident, and magnetic. You're experienced. You know how to handle yourself in a relationship, and many people appreciate that. Many people, all in a row. <br><br> You've had your share of blissful beginnings, to be sure. But things almost never turn out how you'd like, do they? The problem is you're never happy with someone for an extended period of time. 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Nice going. <br><br> <font shmolor="red">ALWAYS AVOID</font>: <b>The Intern (DGSD)</b>, <b>The Maid of Honor (DGLM)</b> <br><br><font shmolor="blue">CONSIDER</font>: <b>The Sudden Departure (RBLM)</b> </td> </tr> </tbody></table> <br><br>Link: <a href="http://www.okcupid.com/online.dating.persona.test"><b>The Online Dating Persona Test</b></a> @ <a href="http://www.okcupid.com"><b><b>OkCupid</b> - free online dating</b></a>.</td></tr></table><br /><br /><br />this isn't even me....totally urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bythethroat:135488 2006-10-08T02:32:46Z 2006-10-08T02:32:46Z jackie is damned amazing urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bythethroat:135216 2006-08-06T01:57:59Z 2006-08-06T01:59:37Z the babys first tooth came in today!!!! it's soooo fucking cool. i'm soooo excited. it's terribly cute.<br /><br />so when joon came home today she played my drums and was all excited about having drums in the house. so here are the drums.<br /><img src="http://i112.photobucket.com/albums/n162/bengurion/68513a2a.jpg" /><br /><img src="http://i112.photobucket.com/albums/n162/bengurion/66afcb9d.jpg" /><br /><img src="http://i112.photobucket.com/albums/n162/bengurion/9514a82b.jpg" /><br /><br />muwhahaha. i hope i remember how to play them.<br />oh...and the kick drum head definitely has to be replaced....root and roll....my ass urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bythethroat:135098 2006-08-05T19:38:42Z 2006-08-05T19:38:42Z jackie bought me a drumset!!! it's pretty. much nicer than my old set. now all i need are some cymbals and stands. a kick drum pedal and a throne. i'm ready for a band now!!!! yippee<br /><br />i'm on my way to buying everything needed for a band. i will take over the world one day.<br /><br />anyways. we went out for breakfast at cracker barrels. went for a walk with the dogs at cherokee park. drove home and saw the drums. went to look at them. then came back and bought them.<br /><br />that's been our day so far. she does sooo much for me that it is crazy. i love her madly. i'd die for her.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />the baby is getting so big and needy. but she is learning so much stuff. it's neat watching them grow...<br /><br /><br />outtie...5 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bythethroat:134699 2006-07-27T22:21:36Z 2006-07-27T22:21:36Z JACKIE & i ARE ENGAGED!!!! i asked her and she said YES!!!<br />it makes me terribly happy. i cried. she wouldn't let it go the way i planned. but luckily we had a match quiz done...and it said we were perfect (-ly crazy) for each other. so it worked out for perfect perfection!!! it made me sooo damn nervous. i was a complete wreck the entire time before that. i'm just sooo happy she said yes. i thought that she wouldn't. i love my jackie more than everything. i wanna live & die with her. i get to kiss her forever!!!!!! i get to have sex with her forever!!!! YUMMY!!!!!!!!!!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bythethroat:134017 2006-05-26T01:19:53Z 2006-05-26T01:19:53Z i'm soo tired. i was up most of last night. i am such an ass. i pretty much hate myself right now.<br /><br />yesterday was awesome though. jackie and i went and had dinner. then we went for a nice walk and went to the skatepark. we came home to get my bike so i could ride. and guess what it does!! it fucking rains. damn the gods.<br /><br />i feel like i have ruined everything. i love her so much. i'd die for her. but i'm such a fuckup. i can't even talk. really. i quit.<br /><br />thank you for 2 nice days love. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bythethroat:133465 2006-04-19T21:29:33Z 2006-04-19T21:29:33Z <table border="0" cellpadding="5" cellspacing="0" width="600"><tr><td></td><td> You scored as <b>Democrat</b>. <a href="http://imunimaginative.deviantart.com">&lt;'Imunimaginative's Deviantart Page'&gt;</a><br><br><table border="0" width="300" cellspacing="0" 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In?</a><br><font face="Arial" size="1">created with <a href="http://quizfarm.com">QuizFarm.com</a></font></table> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bythethroat:133265 2006-03-29T20:57:05Z 2006-03-29T20:57:05Z so i had my wisdom teeth pulled this morning. and it sucks. i was in a chair with my mouth open and the next thing i know....i was being woken up and i dont remeber a damn thing...that was neat. but now it sucks. bloody mouth, foul taste in my mouth. i hate it. but jackie is taking wonderful care of me. i love her.<br /><br />well we got a new van. we were having a hard time getting into jackies car. and my car was a clunker. so we got a 2005 kia sedona. it's nice. i like it a lot.<br /><br /><img src="http://thumbs.automart.com/imgs/ag/autoextra/cst/457/269457/463/21331463/feed/thumb/10275020555001030.jpg" /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bythethroat:132875 2006-03-28T03:15:22Z 2006-03-28T03:15:22Z wow...being home with jackie has been amazing.i adore her. she is sooo amazing (even though she does want to watch the "flavor of love" reunion on vh1). &lt;------gag<br />so the baby is great. joon handled and is still handling everything really well. jackie is doing wonderfully. and i am a nervous wreck. but it's all ok. i bought a new car....i mean minivan....that we all fit in. i know i'm a nerd with a minivan. and i thought i was cool. damn me.<br />i'm getting my wisdom teeth cut out wednesday. that sounds like a party. yay!<br />but lately, i've been obsessed with jackie. i drove a car with a tape player down to my parents...and i was alone. so i listened to old music and there is this wonderful song by this band that released a "terrible" album. and it's sooo good and lovey. it's for her. i wish i could write her songs. it would make her happy. <br /><br /><i>"I don't care what they say<br />Those numbers don't mean a thing<br />We've got it made<br />This world is just me and you<br />And we know just what to do<br />We've got it made<br />Hey everything's gonna be okay<br />(We've got it made together)<br />I don't care if we get a job<br />We've already got a life<br />We've got it made<br />When I look in your eyes<br />I know what I want in life<br />Nothing more, nothing less<br />Be the key to my success<br />Nothing more, nothing less."</i> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bythethroat:132778 2006-03-18T21:14:42Z 2006-03-18T21:14:42Z argh. i wanna scream. i am pissed off. i want to rant. and i sound stupid typing this in a public journal, that people can read.<br /><br />i went to pick up my medicine and it was $50. FIFTY fucking dollars. insane. i mean i pay for insurance. i would think it would help me out a little more than that for fucks sake.<br /><br />so yes. i'm depressed about anti-depressants. i can't even afford them. i mean i can. but going broke blows. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bythethroat:132407 2006-03-16T21:18:08Z 2006-03-16T21:18:08Z we had the baby. actually jackie had the baby. but i was there. it was exciting & very tiresome. she was beautiful, just like her mommy. however she weighed 9 lbs & 7 oz.. huge baby. it was a great time. but not in the fun way! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bythethroat:132176 2006-02-05T18:52:07Z 2006-02-05T18:52:07Z sepultura - refuse-resist i've hurt jackies feelings a lot lately. i feel terrible about it. maybe my sense of humor sucks nowadays. maybe it seems serious when it's not. but regardless...i feel pretty worthless. but it's sooo hard to stop because i've had this sick sense of humor forever...and now it's here. i hope i can break it. i feel bad for jackie.<br /><br />everything is okay. i wish it were better. i want jackie to be happy happy happy. and she is sad sad sad. well at least that is what it seems. maybe i make her unhappy. i suck. <br /><br />the baby is well on her way. i hope all that goes as planned. and i hope she is healthy...as well as jackie.<br /><br />i saw the most humorous thing yesterday. i saw this old pontiac minivan on dubs....so i pull up next to it and take it's picture...the driver rolls his window down and takes my picture it was awesome...but anyway...here it is....<br /><br /><img src="http://www.cdart.com/web1/music/bythethroat/pictures/minivan_on_dubs.jpg" /><br /><br />i know...it's fucking sweet urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bythethroat:131690 2005-12-27T03:10:38Z 2005-12-27T03:10:38Z so yes yes christmas! it was exciting!!! i got some awesome gifts from jackie. and i hope that she liked hers as much as i loved mine. she bought me two awesome band shirts...an old murder city devils shirt & a dead low tide shirt! she got me a big <a href="http://www.sears.com/sr/javasr/product.do?BV_UseBVCookie=Yes&amp;vertical=TOOL&amp;fromAuto=YES&amp;bidsite=CRAFT&amp;pid=009CH048000" target="_blank">craftsman tool box</a> which was totally awesome. she bought me a gary fisher mountain bike back in the spring!!! it was supposed to be my x-mas gift and my birthday gift. both promises she failed to uphold. but hey...i ain't complaining. i loved the gifts. oh yeah and she also bought this <a href="http://www.4-watches.com/casio/prg60t-7v.jpg" target="_blank">WATCH</a>. it is the watch that 9 out of 10 terrorists prefer. i love it it is the most amazing watch ever. it has analog & digital time. it has a digital compass. tells you the temperature, the air pressure and the altitude you are at. it is fucking amazing. check these links out...they are killer:<br /><br /><a href="http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/6782713/" target="_blank">terrorist report 1</a><br /><a href="http://www.stupidsecurity.com/article.pl?sid=05/01/06/1840220&amp;mode=thread" target="_blank">terrorist report 2</a><br /><a href="http://www.nationaljeweler.com/nationaljeweler/headlines/article_display.jsp?vnu_content_id=1000759845" target="_blank">terrorist apology</a><br /><br />so...i bought jackie a ring. it is beautiful. i hope she loves it. it means the world to me. i want to be hers for eternity. i hope she can stand me. because i want her for 2 eternities. i love her. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bythethroat:130431 2005-11-23T01:45:06Z 2005-11-23T01:45:06Z i need to play music. anyone want to play music?<br /><br />i'm too tired to type anything else sorry.<br /><br />but wow. jackie is pregnant & beautiful. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bythethroat:130272 2005-10-27T20:34:14Z 2005-10-27T20:34:14Z it's a girl. we went today to get the sex and normal checkups. everything is okay with the baby...and it's a girl. crazy. i'll be living with 3 girls now. insane. enough to drive me nuts. god help me now. heh. jk.<br /><br />other than that. everything is great. jackie and i are really good. i hope! i love her. it's always getting betetr. all the time. halloween, thanksgiving, and x-mas are all coming up. i'm scared of that. it's all frightening. all these celebrations. eewww. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bythethroat:130032 2005-10-16T14:51:26Z 2005-10-16T14:51:26Z 5 snacks I enjoy...<br /><br />- fruity pebbles<br />- sour patch kids<br />- blueberry yogurt<br />- <strike>dogfood</strike><br />- milk shakes<br /><br /><br />5 songs I know all the words to...<br /><br />- baby...i'm an anarchist<br />- strobe life<br />- up against the wall...motherfuckers<br />- i hate the kids<br />- y control<br /><br />5 things I would do with 100 million dollars...<br /><br />- start my own business<br />- make jackie & her mom never work...again<br />- send joon to the best school<br />- buy a couple farms with houses<br />- run a dog shelter<br /><br /><br />5 places I would run away to...<br />whereever jackie goes...so (i stole this from her)<br /><br />- sweden<br />- <strike>canada</strike><br />- new zealand<br />- india<br />- <strike>north carolina</strike><br /><br /><br />5 things I would never wear...<br /><br />- a north pole shirt<br />- x/l shirts <br />- rocco jeans<br />- a rebel flag<br />- ?<br /><br /><br />5 favorite tv shows...<br /><br />- futurama<br />- the simpsons<br />- csi miama<br />- south park<br />- scooby-doo<br /><br />5 bad habits...<br /><br />- trimming nails too short<br />- over-eating<br />- making myself depressed<br />- forgetting my medicine<br />- sleeping too much<br /><br /><br />5 biggest joys...<br /><br />- jackie<br />- joon<br />- baby (in belly)<br />- jupiter<br />- baxter<br /><br /><br />5 fictional characters I would date...<br /><br />- velma<br />- i don't know really....i can't think of any. i hate girls. duh <br /><br />5 people I tag to do this...<br /><br />- i only have 6 people on my friends list...so anyone who wants to.<br /> i have no friends urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bythethroat:128799 2005-08-29T02:00:44Z 2005-08-29T02:00:44Z <a href="http://quizilla.com/users/nomoemo/quizzes/What%20Exploding%20Dog%20Art%20Are%20You%3F/"><img src="http://images.quizilla.com/N/nomoemo/1052673178_acetothink.JPG" border="0" alt="space"><br> <font size="-1">What Exploding Dog Art Are You?</font></a><br> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bythethroat:128489 2005-08-27T11:20:48Z 2005-08-27T11:20:48Z i like jackies pajama pants. they are way comfortable. i love her. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bythethroat:127339 2005-07-21T02:18:26Z 2005-07-21T02:19:00Z "i'd do anything to look that way<br />when i stop and think again<br />i want to change my face and change my skin<br />no more invisible to them,<br />you can't compare me, i'd to anything<br /><br />big is a scar, you'd better get thin<br />the tanner you are, the more you fit in<br /><br />bullshit, you've got a disease<br />you follow the trends like the rest of the sheep" urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bythethroat:126692 2005-07-06T10:45:20Z 2005-07-06T10:45:20Z whoa. i'm exhausted and i just woke up. i don't think i'll make it through the day. i wish i could bring jackie to work with me. that would be sweet. it would make the day a lot better. hm. well i need to brush the teethers and clean the dogs ear and get going. bubye. goddamn i love pointless entries.<br /><br />i love jackie. i wanna go wake her up and squeeze her to death and cover her with kisses. i love her. i wish i could give her the world and /or the life she deserves. inadequacy sucks. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bythethroat:125749 2005-06-18T15:17:57Z 2005-06-18T15:17:57Z 1. What time did you get up this morning? 9:15am<br /><br /><br />2. Diamond or pearls? neither<br /><br /><br />3. What was the last film you saw at the movies? i don't even know.<br /><br /><br />4. What is your new favorite TV show? television...what's that?<br /><br /><br />5. What did you have for breakfast? cinnamon rolls.<br /><br /><br />6. What is your middle name? jason<br /><br /><br />7. What is your favorite cuisine? i don't know<br /><br /><br />8. What is your favorite chip flavor? eck. i'm not a chip person...tortilla chips...i like those<br /><br /><br />9. What foods do you dislike? i don't know. steak cooked on the stove, mustard. yucky stuff...you know!<br /><br /><br />10. What is your favorite CD at the moment? hmmm...still, the icarus line - penance soiree, harkonen - dancing<br /><br /><br />11. What type of car do you drive? my lovely girlfriends. i need to get one...as soon as i get rid of mine<br /><br /><br />12. Favorite sandwich? one with pickles, provolone cheese and on wheat bread. almost any meat will do. <br /><br /><br />13. What characteristic do you despise? hmmm...hard one. i guess never being happy with what you have. always needing more<br /><br /><br />14. Favorite item of clothing? i don't know. a pair of jeans that don't fit me anymore.<br /><br /><br />15. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? all around the world.<br /><br /><br />16. What color is your bathroom? white with ugly fishes on the wall<br /><br /><br />17. Favorite brand of clothing? you know, whatever fits well.<br /><br /><br />18. Where would you retire to? whereever jackie is. so i could drive her insane for the rest of her life<br /><br /><br />19. Favorite time of day? well...if it's a work day,then i'd say late afternoon. i'f i'm off of work....then all day<br /><br /><br />20. What was your most memorable birthday? my mid-life crisis.<br /><br /><br />21. Favorite cocktail? not a big cacktail fan so i'll say ameretto sour. pardon my spelling, i'm an idiot<br /><br /><br />22. Favorite sport to watch? bmx, i suppose<br /><br /><br />23. Who do you least expect to send this back to you? .....see below<br /><br /><br />24. Person you expect to send it back first? i don't think anyone reads my journal. they all gave up hope<br /><br /><br />25. What fabric detergent do you use? Tide and tide w/ bleach<br /><br /><br />26. Coke or Pepsi? pepsi....unless it is cherry...then coke<br /><br /><br />27. Are you a morning person or a night owl? morning person. i wish i was a night owl<br /><br /><br />28. What is your shoe size? 9-1/2 to 10-1/2 depending on the shoe<br /><br /><br />29. Do you have any pets? ummm...2 doggies and 3 fish that i don't have to care for.<br /><br /><br />30. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share with your family and<br />friends? my brain quit functioning<br /><br /><br />31. What did you want to be when you were little? an architect urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bythethroat:125192 2005-06-13T11:31:00Z 2005-06-13T11:31:00Z i just thought i'd let you all know that i have the sweetest girlfriend ever! EVER i tell you.<br /><br />i love her urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bythethroat:124412 2005-06-02T19:42:18Z 2005-06-02T19:42:18Z $150 for a livejournal account...i doubt it! i don't care how many pictures i can have. BLAH!<br />i wanna see the icarus line!!! i need to see them!